The Astonishing Color of After

The Astonishing Color of After

Leigh Chen Sanders is absolutely certain about one thing: When her mother died by suicide, she turned into a bird. Leigh, who is half Asian and half white, travels to Taiwan to meet her maternal grandparents for the first time. There, she is determined to find her mother, the bird. In her search, she winds up chasing after ghosts, uncovering family secrets, and forging a ne Leigh Chen Sanders is absolutely certain about one thing: When her mother died by suicide, she turned into a bird. ...

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Title:The Astonishing Color of After
Author:Emily X.R. Pan
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Genres:Young Adult
ISBN:031646399X
Format Type:Hardcover
Number of Pages:472 pages pages

The Astonishing Color of After Reviews

  • Kelly
    Mar 01, 2018

    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother?s condition feel like this big secret? ... ?She?s forgotten how to be happy,? I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on insta...

    TW: suicide, depression Such a beautiful debut! The writing was exquisite, I really cared for the characters, and I loved learning more about Chinese/Taiwanese culture! It was a fully immersive read that was definitely heartbreaking, but beautiful overall. The magical realism/religi...

    can't decide on a four or a five, but like... that should say something either way?? cathartic, emotive, and gorgeously written, with a lead protagonist I absolutely adore. review to come! ...

    I guess I should maybe give my own book five stars? NEWS: THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER debuted on the New York Times Bestseller list and the Indie Bestseller list! It also was named by the Wall Street Journal as one of the top twelve books of the season, was #5 on the INDIE ...

    This book hit home for me. From Leigh losing her mom to how she had to grow up being biracial. Just a beautiful and heartfelt story. ...

    this is not a bad book it?s not!! I?m enjoying it!!! however, it is VERY slow (since it is focused around Leigh?s grief), and usually, I?m fine with slow books. but I can currently feel myself on the edge of a slump and I will not let a slow book drag me down into that h...

    I'm proud of my Asian heritage. That said, there are some things upon which the Asian culture can improve in general, and one of the major issues is how we treat mental illness. It is a stigma. It is ignored until one explodes. Even in the US, Asian-American women have a high rates of ...

    Beautiful and heartbreaking. Easily one of the best books I?ve read this year, and definitely a new favourite. ...

    There's no point in wishing. We can't change anything about the past. We can only remember. We can only move forward. Last December, many K-pop fans (myself included) were distraught when SHINee's Jonghyun committed suicide. Following this tragedy, EXO's Baekhyun was criticized for ...

    Basically, I ditched all my would-be current reads and everything else in my life for this book (with Hamiltrash #1?s blessing), and it kind of (?) lived up to being one of my most anticipated 2018 releases. (rtc) Pretty, pretty please, let me love this. * A COPY OF THIS BOO...

    Lovely writing but too much color talk! ...

    3.75/5 My mother is a bird. This isn?t like some William Faulkner stream-of-consciousness metaphorical crap. My mother. Is literally. A bird. First of all, I love the quote above; such a phenomenal and humorous way to start a novel. Wow, okay, this book went through so man...

    Where do I even begin? I was immediately drawn to this book because of the main character who is biracial (half-white, half-Asian) like myself. Little did I know what a wild and heartfelt journey this book would be. The great thing is that I won this review copy from a giveaway host...

    Here is my mother, with wings instead of hands, and feathers instead of hair. Here is my mother, the reddest of brilliant reds, the color of my love and my fear, all of my fiercest feelings trailing after her in the sky like the tail of a comet. Trigger Warning: Suicide, depressio...

    I cannot put into words how much I absolutely loved this book. Love is not even the correct word here. It?s more like staring obsessively at this book all day, tweeting about it, letting it claim my heart, thinking about it all the time, wanting to own a thousand copies of it. Th...

    This book is simply incredible. I absorbed it into my soul and cried like a baby when I finished it. I then put it on my review list and it?s taken me a while to come back to tell you all about it, but here I am. ?How could a person like her be depressed? She was full of energy ...

    There is not a single thing in this book I did not love. The lush writing. The use of color. The exploration of family secrets and stories. Of culture. Or belief. But the thing that hit hardest was the way depression is rendered. This is a book about grief in the wake of suicide th...

  • Nicole N. (A Myriad of Books)
    Aug 16, 2017

    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother?s condition feel like this big secret? ... ?She?s forgotten how to be happy,? I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on insta...

    TW: suicide, depression Such a beautiful debut! The writing was exquisite, I really cared for the characters, and I loved learning more about Chinese/Taiwanese culture! It was a fully immersive read that was definitely heartbreaking, but beautiful overall. The magical realism/religi...

    can't decide on a four or a five, but like... that should say something either way?? cathartic, emotive, and gorgeously written, with a lead protagonist I absolutely adore. review to come! ...

    I guess I should maybe give my own book five stars? NEWS: THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER debuted on the New York Times Bestseller list and the Indie Bestseller list! It also was named by the Wall Street Journal as one of the top twelve books of the season, was #5 on the INDIE ...

    This book hit home for me. From Leigh losing her mom to how she had to grow up being biracial. Just a beautiful and heartfelt story. ...

    this is not a bad book it?s not!! I?m enjoying it!!! however, it is VERY slow (since it is focused around Leigh?s grief), and usually, I?m fine with slow books. but I can currently feel myself on the edge of a slump and I will not let a slow book drag me down into that h...

    I'm proud of my Asian heritage. That said, there are some things upon which the Asian culture can improve in general, and one of the major issues is how we treat mental illness. It is a stigma. It is ignored until one explodes. Even in the US, Asian-American women have a high rates of ...

    Beautiful and heartbreaking. Easily one of the best books I?ve read this year, and definitely a new favourite. ...

    There's no point in wishing. We can't change anything about the past. We can only remember. We can only move forward. Last December, many K-pop fans (myself included) were distraught when SHINee's Jonghyun committed suicide. Following this tragedy, EXO's Baekhyun was criticized for ...

    Basically, I ditched all my would-be current reads and everything else in my life for this book (with Hamiltrash #1?s blessing), and it kind of (?) lived up to being one of my most anticipated 2018 releases. (rtc) Pretty, pretty please, let me love this. * A COPY OF THIS BOO...

    Lovely writing but too much color talk! ...

    3.75/5 My mother is a bird. This isn?t like some William Faulkner stream-of-consciousness metaphorical crap. My mother. Is literally. A bird. First of all, I love the quote above; such a phenomenal and humorous way to start a novel. Wow, okay, this book went through so man...

    Where do I even begin? I was immediately drawn to this book because of the main character who is biracial (half-white, half-Asian) like myself. Little did I know what a wild and heartfelt journey this book would be. The great thing is that I won this review copy from a giveaway host...

  • Jillian (bookishandnerdy)
    Mar 12, 2018

    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother?s condition feel like this big secret? ... ?She?s forgotten how to be happy,? I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on insta...

    TW: suicide, depression Such a beautiful debut! The writing was exquisite, I really cared for the characters, and I loved learning more about Chinese/Taiwanese culture! It was a fully immersive read that was definitely heartbreaking, but beautiful overall. The magical realism/religi...

    can't decide on a four or a five, but like... that should say something either way?? cathartic, emotive, and gorgeously written, with a lead protagonist I absolutely adore. review to come! ...

    I guess I should maybe give my own book five stars? NEWS: THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER debuted on the New York Times Bestseller list and the Indie Bestseller list! It also was named by the Wall Street Journal as one of the top twelve books of the season, was #5 on the INDIE ...

    This book hit home for me. From Leigh losing her mom to how she had to grow up being biracial. Just a beautiful and heartfelt story. ...

    this is not a bad book it?s not!! I?m enjoying it!!! however, it is VERY slow (since it is focused around Leigh?s grief), and usually, I?m fine with slow books. but I can currently feel myself on the edge of a slump and I will not let a slow book drag me down into that h...

    I'm proud of my Asian heritage. That said, there are some things upon which the Asian culture can improve in general, and one of the major issues is how we treat mental illness. It is a stigma. It is ignored until one explodes. Even in the US, Asian-American women have a high rates of ...

    Beautiful and heartbreaking. Easily one of the best books I?ve read this year, and definitely a new favourite. ...

    There's no point in wishing. We can't change anything about the past. We can only remember. We can only move forward. Last December, many K-pop fans (myself included) were distraught when SHINee's Jonghyun committed suicide. Following this tragedy, EXO's Baekhyun was criticized for ...

    Basically, I ditched all my would-be current reads and everything else in my life for this book (with Hamiltrash #1?s blessing), and it kind of (?) lived up to being one of my most anticipated 2018 releases. (rtc) Pretty, pretty please, let me love this. * A COPY OF THIS BOO...

    Lovely writing but too much color talk! ...

    3.75/5 My mother is a bird. This isn?t like some William Faulkner stream-of-consciousness metaphorical crap. My mother. Is literally. A bird. First of all, I love the quote above; such a phenomenal and humorous way to start a novel. Wow, okay, this book went through so man...

    Where do I even begin? I was immediately drawn to this book because of the main character who is biracial (half-white, half-Asian) like myself. Little did I know what a wild and heartfelt journey this book would be. The great thing is that I won this review copy from a giveaway host...

    Here is my mother, with wings instead of hands, and feathers instead of hair. Here is my mother, the reddest of brilliant reds, the color of my love and my fear, all of my fiercest feelings trailing after her in the sky like the tail of a comet. Trigger Warning: Suicide, depressio...

    I cannot put into words how much I absolutely loved this book. Love is not even the correct word here. It?s more like staring obsessively at this book all day, tweeting about it, letting it claim my heart, thinking about it all the time, wanting to own a thousand copies of it. Th...

    This book is simply incredible. I absorbed it into my soul and cried like a baby when I finished it. I then put it on my review list and it?s taken me a while to come back to tell you all about it, but here I am. ?How could a person like her be depressed? She was full of energy ...

    There is not a single thing in this book I did not love. The lush writing. The use of color. The exploration of family secrets and stories. Of culture. Or belief. But the thing that hit hardest was the way depression is rendered. This is a book about grief in the wake of suicide th...

    I think this is one of the best-written debuts of the year. I loved the magical realism elements being used to explain a history of mental illness and grief and hats off for the immensely beautiful prose sprinkled with Chinese and Taiwanese. My only qualm is that I wish the romance was...

    You can find this review and others at arctic books 3.5/5 stars. I hadn?t heard much about THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER before I was lucky enough to receive a copy of this gorgeous novel in my mailbox. After I read the synopsis, I became so excited to read this, especially b...

    This is the most beautiful book I have read in such a long time. The astonishing color of after is a book that will stay with me for rest of my life. It was incredibly hard to read but so cathartic for me. I am so grateful for this story. I want everyone to read this but I know that th...

  • Bri
    Jul 07, 2016

    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother?s condition feel like this big secret? ... ?She?s forgotten how to be happy,? I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on insta...

    TW: suicide, depression Such a beautiful debut! The writing was exquisite, I really cared for the characters, and I loved learning more about Chinese/Taiwanese culture! It was a fully immersive read that was definitely heartbreaking, but beautiful overall. The magical realism/religi...

    can't decide on a four or a five, but like... that should say something either way?? cathartic, emotive, and gorgeously written, with a lead protagonist I absolutely adore. review to come! ...

    I guess I should maybe give my own book five stars? NEWS: THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER debuted on the New York Times Bestseller list and the Indie Bestseller list! It also was named by the Wall Street Journal as one of the top twelve books of the season, was #5 on the INDIE ...

    This book hit home for me. From Leigh losing her mom to how she had to grow up being biracial. Just a beautiful and heartfelt story. ...

    this is not a bad book it?s not!! I?m enjoying it!!! however, it is VERY slow (since it is focused around Leigh?s grief), and usually, I?m fine with slow books. but I can currently feel myself on the edge of a slump and I will not let a slow book drag me down into that h...

    I'm proud of my Asian heritage. That said, there are some things upon which the Asian culture can improve in general, and one of the major issues is how we treat mental illness. It is a stigma. It is ignored until one explodes. Even in the US, Asian-American women have a high rates of ...

    Beautiful and heartbreaking. Easily one of the best books I?ve read this year, and definitely a new favourite. ...

    There's no point in wishing. We can't change anything about the past. We can only remember. We can only move forward. Last December, many K-pop fans (myself included) were distraught when SHINee's Jonghyun committed suicide. Following this tragedy, EXO's Baekhyun was criticized for ...

    Basically, I ditched all my would-be current reads and everything else in my life for this book (with Hamiltrash #1?s blessing), and it kind of (?) lived up to being one of my most anticipated 2018 releases. (rtc) Pretty, pretty please, let me love this. * A COPY OF THIS BOO...

    Lovely writing but too much color talk! ...

    3.75/5 My mother is a bird. This isn?t like some William Faulkner stream-of-consciousness metaphorical crap. My mother. Is literally. A bird. First of all, I love the quote above; such a phenomenal and humorous way to start a novel. Wow, okay, this book went through so man...

    Where do I even begin? I was immediately drawn to this book because of the main character who is biracial (half-white, half-Asian) like myself. Little did I know what a wild and heartfelt journey this book would be. The great thing is that I won this review copy from a giveaway host...

    Here is my mother, with wings instead of hands, and feathers instead of hair. Here is my mother, the reddest of brilliant reds, the color of my love and my fear, all of my fiercest feelings trailing after her in the sky like the tail of a comet. Trigger Warning: Suicide, depressio...

    I cannot put into words how much I absolutely loved this book. Love is not even the correct word here. It?s more like staring obsessively at this book all day, tweeting about it, letting it claim my heart, thinking about it all the time, wanting to own a thousand copies of it. Th...

    This book is simply incredible. I absorbed it into my soul and cried like a baby when I finished it. I then put it on my review list and it?s taken me a while to come back to tell you all about it, but here I am. ?How could a person like her be depressed? She was full of energy ...

    There is not a single thing in this book I did not love. The lush writing. The use of color. The exploration of family secrets and stories. Of culture. Or belief. But the thing that hit hardest was the way depression is rendered. This is a book about grief in the wake of suicide th...

    I think this is one of the best-written debuts of the year. I loved the magical realism elements being used to explain a history of mental illness and grief and hats off for the immensely beautiful prose sprinkled with Chinese and Taiwanese. My only qualm is that I wish the romance was...

    You can find this review and others at arctic books 3.5/5 stars. I hadn?t heard much about THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER before I was lucky enough to receive a copy of this gorgeous novel in my mailbox. After I read the synopsis, I became so excited to read this, especially b...

    This is the most beautiful book I have read in such a long time. The astonishing color of after is a book that will stay with me for rest of my life. It was incredibly hard to read but so cathartic for me. I am so grateful for this story. I want everyone to read this but I know that th...

    Why I Love It by BOTM Judge Liberty Hardy Kissing her longtime bff Axel in his basement was the biggest event in Leigh Chen Sanders? life so far, until she gets home and learns her mother has taken her own life. Set adrift by her devastation, Leigh shuts herself off from the worl...

    I DEVOURED this book on the plane. The writing is absolutely exquisite and heart-wrenching, and the characters well-rendered and humanly flawed. A truly moving portrait of grief, complicated family relationships, and the secrets we keep even from our loved ones. Maybe especially our lo...

    Releasing Today March 20, 2018! After losing her mother to depression/suicide Leigh goes on a journey to Taiwan to connect with her mother's family whom she has never known. Along the way Leigh learns so much about her mother, family, love, and loss. Filled with magical realism this...

    It. Is. EVERYTHING. ...

  • Khanh, first of her name, mother of bunnies
    Mar 21, 2018

    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother?s condition feel like this big secret? ... ?She?s forgotten how to be happy,? I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on insta...

    TW: suicide, depression Such a beautiful debut! The writing was exquisite, I really cared for the characters, and I loved learning more about Chinese/Taiwanese culture! It was a fully immersive read that was definitely heartbreaking, but beautiful overall. The magical realism/religi...

    can't decide on a four or a five, but like... that should say something either way?? cathartic, emotive, and gorgeously written, with a lead protagonist I absolutely adore. review to come! ...

    I guess I should maybe give my own book five stars? NEWS: THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER debuted on the New York Times Bestseller list and the Indie Bestseller list! It also was named by the Wall Street Journal as one of the top twelve books of the season, was #5 on the INDIE ...

    This book hit home for me. From Leigh losing her mom to how she had to grow up being biracial. Just a beautiful and heartfelt story. ...

    this is not a bad book it?s not!! I?m enjoying it!!! however, it is VERY slow (since it is focused around Leigh?s grief), and usually, I?m fine with slow books. but I can currently feel myself on the edge of a slump and I will not let a slow book drag me down into that h...

    I'm proud of my Asian heritage. That said, there are some things upon which the Asian culture can improve in general, and one of the major issues is how we treat mental illness. It is a stigma. It is ignored until one explodes. Even in the US, Asian-American women have a high rates of ...

  • Emily May
    Mar 04, 2018

    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother?s condition feel like this big secret? ... ?She?s forgotten how to be happy,? I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on insta...

  • shady boots | #TeamMizCracker
    Apr 15, 2018

    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother?s condition feel like this big secret? ... ?She?s forgotten how to be happy,? I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on insta...

    TW: suicide, depression Such a beautiful debut! The writing was exquisite, I really cared for the characters, and I loved learning more about Chinese/Taiwanese culture! It was a fully immersive read that was definitely heartbreaking, but beautiful overall. The magical realism/religi...

    can't decide on a four or a five, but like... that should say something either way?? cathartic, emotive, and gorgeously written, with a lead protagonist I absolutely adore. review to come! ...

    I guess I should maybe give my own book five stars? NEWS: THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER debuted on the New York Times Bestseller list and the Indie Bestseller list! It also was named by the Wall Street Journal as one of the top twelve books of the season, was #5 on the INDIE ...

    This book hit home for me. From Leigh losing her mom to how she had to grow up being biracial. Just a beautiful and heartfelt story. ...

    this is not a bad book it?s not!! I?m enjoying it!!! however, it is VERY slow (since it is focused around Leigh?s grief), and usually, I?m fine with slow books. but I can currently feel myself on the edge of a slump and I will not let a slow book drag me down into that h...

    I'm proud of my Asian heritage. That said, there are some things upon which the Asian culture can improve in general, and one of the major issues is how we treat mental illness. It is a stigma. It is ignored until one explodes. Even in the US, Asian-American women have a high rates of ...

    Beautiful and heartbreaking. Easily one of the best books I?ve read this year, and definitely a new favourite. ...

    There's no point in wishing. We can't change anything about the past. We can only remember. We can only move forward. Last December, many K-pop fans (myself included) were distraught when SHINee's Jonghyun committed suicide. Following this tragedy, EXO's Baekhyun was criticized for ...

    Basically, I ditched all my would-be current reads and everything else in my life for this book (with Hamiltrash #1?s blessing), and it kind of (?) lived up to being one of my most anticipated 2018 releases. (rtc) Pretty, pretty please, let me love this. * A COPY OF THIS BOO...

    Lovely writing but too much color talk! ...

    3.75/5 My mother is a bird. This isn?t like some William Faulkner stream-of-consciousness metaphorical crap. My mother. Is literally. A bird. First of all, I love the quote above; such a phenomenal and humorous way to start a novel. Wow, okay, this book went through so man...

    Where do I even begin? I was immediately drawn to this book because of the main character who is biracial (half-white, half-Asian) like myself. Little did I know what a wild and heartfelt journey this book would be. The great thing is that I won this review copy from a giveaway host...

    Here is my mother, with wings instead of hands, and feathers instead of hair. Here is my mother, the reddest of brilliant reds, the color of my love and my fear, all of my fiercest feelings trailing after her in the sky like the tail of a comet. Trigger Warning: Suicide, depressio...

  • Julie
    Nov 06, 2017

    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother?s condition feel like this big secret? ... ?She?s forgotten how to be happy,? I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on insta...

    TW: suicide, depression Such a beautiful debut! The writing was exquisite, I really cared for the characters, and I loved learning more about Chinese/Taiwanese culture! It was a fully immersive read that was definitely heartbreaking, but beautiful overall. The magical realism/religi...

    can't decide on a four or a five, but like... that should say something either way?? cathartic, emotive, and gorgeously written, with a lead protagonist I absolutely adore. review to come! ...

    I guess I should maybe give my own book five stars? NEWS: THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER debuted on the New York Times Bestseller list and the Indie Bestseller list! It also was named by the Wall Street Journal as one of the top twelve books of the season, was #5 on the INDIE ...

    This book hit home for me. From Leigh losing her mom to how she had to grow up being biracial. Just a beautiful and heartfelt story. ...

    this is not a bad book it?s not!! I?m enjoying it!!! however, it is VERY slow (since it is focused around Leigh?s grief), and usually, I?m fine with slow books. but I can currently feel myself on the edge of a slump and I will not let a slow book drag me down into that h...

    I'm proud of my Asian heritage. That said, there are some things upon which the Asian culture can improve in general, and one of the major issues is how we treat mental illness. It is a stigma. It is ignored until one explodes. Even in the US, Asian-American women have a high rates of ...

    Beautiful and heartbreaking. Easily one of the best books I?ve read this year, and definitely a new favourite. ...

    There's no point in wishing. We can't change anything about the past. We can only remember. We can only move forward. Last December, many K-pop fans (myself included) were distraught when SHINee's Jonghyun committed suicide. Following this tragedy, EXO's Baekhyun was criticized for ...

    Basically, I ditched all my would-be current reads and everything else in my life for this book (with Hamiltrash #1?s blessing), and it kind of (?) lived up to being one of my most anticipated 2018 releases. (rtc) Pretty, pretty please, let me love this. * A COPY OF THIS BOO...

    Lovely writing but too much color talk! ...

    3.75/5 My mother is a bird. This isn?t like some William Faulkner stream-of-consciousness metaphorical crap. My mother. Is literally. A bird. First of all, I love the quote above; such a phenomenal and humorous way to start a novel. Wow, okay, this book went through so man...

    Where do I even begin? I was immediately drawn to this book because of the main character who is biracial (half-white, half-Asian) like myself. Little did I know what a wild and heartfelt journey this book would be. The great thing is that I won this review copy from a giveaway host...

    Here is my mother, with wings instead of hands, and feathers instead of hair. Here is my mother, the reddest of brilliant reds, the color of my love and my fear, all of my fiercest feelings trailing after her in the sky like the tail of a comet. Trigger Warning: Suicide, depressio...

    I cannot put into words how much I absolutely loved this book. Love is not even the correct word here. It?s more like staring obsessively at this book all day, tweeting about it, letting it claim my heart, thinking about it all the time, wanting to own a thousand copies of it. Th...

    This book is simply incredible. I absorbed it into my soul and cried like a baby when I finished it. I then put it on my review list and it?s taken me a while to come back to tell you all about it, but here I am. ?How could a person like her be depressed? She was full of energy ...

    There is not a single thing in this book I did not love. The lush writing. The use of color. The exploration of family secrets and stories. Of culture. Or belief. But the thing that hit hardest was the way depression is rendered. This is a book about grief in the wake of suicide th...

    I think this is one of the best-written debuts of the year. I loved the magical realism elements being used to explain a history of mental illness and grief and hats off for the immensely beautiful prose sprinkled with Chinese and Taiwanese. My only qualm is that I wish the romance was...

    You can find this review and others at arctic books 3.5/5 stars. I hadn?t heard much about THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER before I was lucky enough to receive a copy of this gorgeous novel in my mailbox. After I read the synopsis, I became so excited to read this, especially b...

    This is the most beautiful book I have read in such a long time. The astonishing color of after is a book that will stay with me for rest of my life. It was incredibly hard to read but so cathartic for me. I am so grateful for this story. I want everyone to read this but I know that th...

    Why I Love It by BOTM Judge Liberty Hardy Kissing her longtime bff Axel in his basement was the biggest event in Leigh Chen Sanders? life so far, until she gets home and learns her mother has taken her own life. Set adrift by her devastation, Leigh shuts herself off from the worl...

    I DEVOURED this book on the plane. The writing is absolutely exquisite and heart-wrenching, and the characters well-rendered and humanly flawed. A truly moving portrait of grief, complicated family relationships, and the secrets we keep even from our loved ones. Maybe especially our lo...

  • just.one.more.paige
    Apr 07, 2018

    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother?s condition feel like this big secret? ... ?She?s forgotten how to be happy,? I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on insta...

    TW: suicide, depression Such a beautiful debut! The writing was exquisite, I really cared for the characters, and I loved learning more about Chinese/Taiwanese culture! It was a fully immersive read that was definitely heartbreaking, but beautiful overall. The magical realism/religi...

    can't decide on a four or a five, but like... that should say something either way?? cathartic, emotive, and gorgeously written, with a lead protagonist I absolutely adore. review to come! ...

    I guess I should maybe give my own book five stars? NEWS: THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER debuted on the New York Times Bestseller list and the Indie Bestseller list! It also was named by the Wall Street Journal as one of the top twelve books of the season, was #5 on the INDIE ...

    This book hit home for me. From Leigh losing her mom to how she had to grow up being biracial. Just a beautiful and heartfelt story. ...

    this is not a bad book it?s not!! I?m enjoying it!!! however, it is VERY slow (since it is focused around Leigh?s grief), and usually, I?m fine with slow books. but I can currently feel myself on the edge of a slump and I will not let a slow book drag me down into that h...

    I'm proud of my Asian heritage. That said, there are some things upon which the Asian culture can improve in general, and one of the major issues is how we treat mental illness. It is a stigma. It is ignored until one explodes. Even in the US, Asian-American women have a high rates of ...

    Beautiful and heartbreaking. Easily one of the best books I?ve read this year, and definitely a new favourite. ...

    There's no point in wishing. We can't change anything about the past. We can only remember. We can only move forward. Last December, many K-pop fans (myself included) were distraught when SHINee's Jonghyun committed suicide. Following this tragedy, EXO's Baekhyun was criticized for ...

    Basically, I ditched all my would-be current reads and everything else in my life for this book (with Hamiltrash #1?s blessing), and it kind of (?) lived up to being one of my most anticipated 2018 releases. (rtc) Pretty, pretty please, let me love this. * A COPY OF THIS BOO...

    Lovely writing but too much color talk! ...

    3.75/5 My mother is a bird. This isn?t like some William Faulkner stream-of-consciousness metaphorical crap. My mother. Is literally. A bird. First of all, I love the quote above; such a phenomenal and humorous way to start a novel. Wow, okay, this book went through so man...

    Where do I even begin? I was immediately drawn to this book because of the main character who is biracial (half-white, half-Asian) like myself. Little did I know what a wild and heartfelt journey this book would be. The great thing is that I won this review copy from a giveaway host...

    Here is my mother, with wings instead of hands, and feathers instead of hair. Here is my mother, the reddest of brilliant reds, the color of my love and my fear, all of my fiercest feelings trailing after her in the sky like the tail of a comet. Trigger Warning: Suicide, depressio...

    I cannot put into words how much I absolutely loved this book. Love is not even the correct word here. It?s more like staring obsessively at this book all day, tweeting about it, letting it claim my heart, thinking about it all the time, wanting to own a thousand copies of it. Th...

    This book is simply incredible. I absorbed it into my soul and cried like a baby when I finished it. I then put it on my review list and it?s taken me a while to come back to tell you all about it, but here I am. ?How could a person like her be depressed? She was full of energy ...

    There is not a single thing in this book I did not love. The lush writing. The use of color. The exploration of family secrets and stories. Of culture. Or belief. But the thing that hit hardest was the way depression is rendered. This is a book about grief in the wake of suicide th...

    I think this is one of the best-written debuts of the year. I loved the magical realism elements being used to explain a history of mental illness and grief and hats off for the immensely beautiful prose sprinkled with Chinese and Taiwanese. My only qualm is that I wish the romance was...

    You can find this review and others at arctic books 3.5/5 stars. I hadn?t heard much about THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER before I was lucky enough to receive a copy of this gorgeous novel in my mailbox. After I read the synopsis, I became so excited to read this, especially b...

    This is the most beautiful book I have read in such a long time. The astonishing color of after is a book that will stay with me for rest of my life. It was incredibly hard to read but so cathartic for me. I am so grateful for this story. I want everyone to read this but I know that th...

    Why I Love It by BOTM Judge Liberty Hardy Kissing her longtime bff Axel in his basement was the biggest event in Leigh Chen Sanders? life so far, until she gets home and learns her mother has taken her own life. Set adrift by her devastation, Leigh shuts herself off from the worl...

    I DEVOURED this book on the plane. The writing is absolutely exquisite and heart-wrenching, and the characters well-rendered and humanly flawed. A truly moving portrait of grief, complicated family relationships, and the secrets we keep even from our loved ones. Maybe especially our lo...

    Releasing Today March 20, 2018! After losing her mother to depression/suicide Leigh goes on a journey to Taiwan to connect with her mother's family whom she has never known. Along the way Leigh learns so much about her mother, family, love, and loss. Filled with magical realism this...

    It. Is. EVERYTHING. ...

    3.5 stars covers lots of serious topics like depression, suicide, letting go. only thing I didn't like was it was turning in to wild goose chase of this red bird. focuses mostly on Leigh's mental & emotional state as she goes through the loss of her mother. all most all the sto...

    The Astonishing Color of After Emily X.R. Pan Rating: 5/5 Note:Special thanks to Hachette Books for providing a copy for review. I love, love, LOVE THIS BOOK. This has everything I love in it: beautiful and lyrical writing, an accurate representation of Taiwanese culture, won...

    When I make my Book of the Month selections, it?s not always a guarantee that I will enjoy the book I choose. With The Astonishing Color of After, I had a feeling I was going to really love reading it before I even started. I was right. TACoA is a magnificent story of the love tha...

    This book was beautiful, heart-wrenching, devastating, and hopeful. Leigh is half-Asian, with very little connection to her Asian heritage aside from a very small knowledge of Mandarin. When her mom commits suicide and her spirit turns into a bird, Leigh follows clues left by her mo...

    This book had such a beautiful but serious plot and was so well crafted. The writing is what shocked me though- it was so poetic and flowed really well to tell the story. Overall I was really blown away by the whimsical yet haunting story that was featured in this book. ...

    ?Believing is a type of magic. It can make something true.? I don?t usually get to books this soon after publication (my TBR backlog is ridiculous), but based on the description (and that title!) this is one that I actually almost pre-ordered. I decided at the last minute not ...

  • A Lib Tech Reads
    Feb 09, 2018

    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother?s condition feel like this big secret? ... ?She?s forgotten how to be happy,? I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on insta...

    TW: suicide, depression Such a beautiful debut! The writing was exquisite, I really cared for the characters, and I loved learning more about Chinese/Taiwanese culture! It was a fully immersive read that was definitely heartbreaking, but beautiful overall. The magical realism/religi...

    can't decide on a four or a five, but like... that should say something either way?? cathartic, emotive, and gorgeously written, with a lead protagonist I absolutely adore. review to come! ...

    I guess I should maybe give my own book five stars? NEWS: THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER debuted on the New York Times Bestseller list and the Indie Bestseller list! It also was named by the Wall Street Journal as one of the top twelve books of the season, was #5 on the INDIE ...

    This book hit home for me. From Leigh losing her mom to how she had to grow up being biracial. Just a beautiful and heartfelt story. ...

    this is not a bad book it?s not!! I?m enjoying it!!! however, it is VERY slow (since it is focused around Leigh?s grief), and usually, I?m fine with slow books. but I can currently feel myself on the edge of a slump and I will not let a slow book drag me down into that h...

    I'm proud of my Asian heritage. That said, there are some things upon which the Asian culture can improve in general, and one of the major issues is how we treat mental illness. It is a stigma. It is ignored until one explodes. Even in the US, Asian-American women have a high rates of ...

    Beautiful and heartbreaking. Easily one of the best books I?ve read this year, and definitely a new favourite. ...

    There's no point in wishing. We can't change anything about the past. We can only remember. We can only move forward. Last December, many K-pop fans (myself included) were distraught when SHINee's Jonghyun committed suicide. Following this tragedy, EXO's Baekhyun was criticized for ...

    Basically, I ditched all my would-be current reads and everything else in my life for this book (with Hamiltrash #1?s blessing), and it kind of (?) lived up to being one of my most anticipated 2018 releases. (rtc) Pretty, pretty please, let me love this. * A COPY OF THIS BOO...

    Lovely writing but too much color talk! ...

    3.75/5 My mother is a bird. This isn?t like some William Faulkner stream-of-consciousness metaphorical crap. My mother. Is literally. A bird. First of all, I love the quote above; such a phenomenal and humorous way to start a novel. Wow, okay, this book went through so man...

    Where do I even begin? I was immediately drawn to this book because of the main character who is biracial (half-white, half-Asian) like myself. Little did I know what a wild and heartfelt journey this book would be. The great thing is that I won this review copy from a giveaway host...

    Here is my mother, with wings instead of hands, and feathers instead of hair. Here is my mother, the reddest of brilliant reds, the color of my love and my fear, all of my fiercest feelings trailing after her in the sky like the tail of a comet. Trigger Warning: Suicide, depressio...

    I cannot put into words how much I absolutely loved this book. Love is not even the correct word here. It?s more like staring obsessively at this book all day, tweeting about it, letting it claim my heart, thinking about it all the time, wanting to own a thousand copies of it. Th...

    This book is simply incredible. I absorbed it into my soul and cried like a baby when I finished it. I then put it on my review list and it?s taken me a while to come back to tell you all about it, but here I am. ?How could a person like her be depressed? She was full of energy ...

    There is not a single thing in this book I did not love. The lush writing. The use of color. The exploration of family secrets and stories. Of culture. Or belief. But the thing that hit hardest was the way depression is rendered. This is a book about grief in the wake of suicide th...

    I think this is one of the best-written debuts of the year. I loved the magical realism elements being used to explain a history of mental illness and grief and hats off for the immensely beautiful prose sprinkled with Chinese and Taiwanese. My only qualm is that I wish the romance was...

    You can find this review and others at arctic books 3.5/5 stars. I hadn?t heard much about THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER before I was lucky enough to receive a copy of this gorgeous novel in my mailbox. After I read the synopsis, I became so excited to read this, especially b...

    This is the most beautiful book I have read in such a long time. The astonishing color of after is a book that will stay with me for rest of my life. It was incredibly hard to read but so cathartic for me. I am so grateful for this story. I want everyone to read this but I know that th...

    Why I Love It by BOTM Judge Liberty Hardy Kissing her longtime bff Axel in his basement was the biggest event in Leigh Chen Sanders? life so far, until she gets home and learns her mother has taken her own life. Set adrift by her devastation, Leigh shuts herself off from the worl...

    I DEVOURED this book on the plane. The writing is absolutely exquisite and heart-wrenching, and the characters well-rendered and humanly flawed. A truly moving portrait of grief, complicated family relationships, and the secrets we keep even from our loved ones. Maybe especially our lo...

    Releasing Today March 20, 2018! After losing her mother to depression/suicide Leigh goes on a journey to Taiwan to connect with her mother's family whom she has never known. Along the way Leigh learns so much about her mother, family, love, and loss. Filled with magical realism this...

    It. Is. EVERYTHING. ...

    3.5 stars covers lots of serious topics like depression, suicide, letting go. only thing I didn't like was it was turning in to wild goose chase of this red bird. focuses mostly on Leigh's mental & emotional state as she goes through the loss of her mother. all most all the sto...

    The Astonishing Color of After Emily X.R. Pan Rating: 5/5 Note:Special thanks to Hachette Books for providing a copy for review. I love, love, LOVE THIS BOOK. This has everything I love in it: beautiful and lyrical writing, an accurate representation of Taiwanese culture, won...

  • Keertana
    Mar 24, 2018

    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother?s condition feel like this big secret? ... ?She?s forgotten how to be happy,? I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on insta...

    TW: suicide, depression Such a beautiful debut! The writing was exquisite, I really cared for the characters, and I loved learning more about Chinese/Taiwanese culture! It was a fully immersive read that was definitely heartbreaking, but beautiful overall. The magical realism/religi...

    can't decide on a four or a five, but like... that should say something either way?? cathartic, emotive, and gorgeously written, with a lead protagonist I absolutely adore. review to come! ...

    I guess I should maybe give my own book five stars? NEWS: THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER debuted on the New York Times Bestseller list and the Indie Bestseller list! It also was named by the Wall Street Journal as one of the top twelve books of the season, was #5 on the INDIE ...

    This book hit home for me. From Leigh losing her mom to how she had to grow up being biracial. Just a beautiful and heartfelt story. ...

    this is not a bad book it?s not!! I?m enjoying it!!! however, it is VERY slow (since it is focused around Leigh?s grief), and usually, I?m fine with slow books. but I can currently feel myself on the edge of a slump and I will not let a slow book drag me down into that h...

    I'm proud of my Asian heritage. That said, there are some things upon which the Asian culture can improve in general, and one of the major issues is how we treat mental illness. It is a stigma. It is ignored until one explodes. Even in the US, Asian-American women have a high rates of ...

    Beautiful and heartbreaking. Easily one of the best books I?ve read this year, and definitely a new favourite. ...

    There's no point in wishing. We can't change anything about the past. We can only remember. We can only move forward. Last December, many K-pop fans (myself included) were distraught when SHINee's Jonghyun committed suicide. Following this tragedy, EXO's Baekhyun was criticized for ...

    Basically, I ditched all my would-be current reads and everything else in my life for this book (with Hamiltrash #1?s blessing), and it kind of (?) lived up to being one of my most anticipated 2018 releases. (rtc) Pretty, pretty please, let me love this. * A COPY OF THIS BOO...

    Lovely writing but too much color talk! ...

    3.75/5 My mother is a bird. This isn?t like some William Faulkner stream-of-consciousness metaphorical crap. My mother. Is literally. A bird. First of all, I love the quote above; such a phenomenal and humorous way to start a novel. Wow, okay, this book went through so man...

    Where do I even begin? I was immediately drawn to this book because of the main character who is biracial (half-white, half-Asian) like myself. Little did I know what a wild and heartfelt journey this book would be. The great thing is that I won this review copy from a giveaway host...

    Here is my mother, with wings instead of hands, and feathers instead of hair. Here is my mother, the reddest of brilliant reds, the color of my love and my fear, all of my fiercest feelings trailing after her in the sky like the tail of a comet. Trigger Warning: Suicide, depressio...

    I cannot put into words how much I absolutely loved this book. Love is not even the correct word here. It?s more like staring obsessively at this book all day, tweeting about it, letting it claim my heart, thinking about it all the time, wanting to own a thousand copies of it. Th...

    This book is simply incredible. I absorbed it into my soul and cried like a baby when I finished it. I then put it on my review list and it?s taken me a while to come back to tell you all about it, but here I am. ?How could a person like her be depressed? She was full of energy ...

    There is not a single thing in this book I did not love. The lush writing. The use of color. The exploration of family secrets and stories. Of culture. Or belief. But the thing that hit hardest was the way depression is rendered. This is a book about grief in the wake of suicide th...

    I think this is one of the best-written debuts of the year. I loved the magical realism elements being used to explain a history of mental illness and grief and hats off for the immensely beautiful prose sprinkled with Chinese and Taiwanese. My only qualm is that I wish the romance was...

  • Joshua Gabriel (Ever Bookish Josh)
    Feb 21, 2018

    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother?s condition feel like this big secret? ... ?She?s forgotten how to be happy,? I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on insta...

    TW: suicide, depression Such a beautiful debut! The writing was exquisite, I really cared for the characters, and I loved learning more about Chinese/Taiwanese culture! It was a fully immersive read that was definitely heartbreaking, but beautiful overall. The magical realism/religi...

    can't decide on a four or a five, but like... that should say something either way?? cathartic, emotive, and gorgeously written, with a lead protagonist I absolutely adore. review to come! ...

    I guess I should maybe give my own book five stars? NEWS: THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER debuted on the New York Times Bestseller list and the Indie Bestseller list! It also was named by the Wall Street Journal as one of the top twelve books of the season, was #5 on the INDIE ...

    This book hit home for me. From Leigh losing her mom to how she had to grow up being biracial. Just a beautiful and heartfelt story. ...

    this is not a bad book it?s not!! I?m enjoying it!!! however, it is VERY slow (since it is focused around Leigh?s grief), and usually, I?m fine with slow books. but I can currently feel myself on the edge of a slump and I will not let a slow book drag me down into that h...

    I'm proud of my Asian heritage. That said, there are some things upon which the Asian culture can improve in general, and one of the major issues is how we treat mental illness. It is a stigma. It is ignored until one explodes. Even in the US, Asian-American women have a high rates of ...

    Beautiful and heartbreaking. Easily one of the best books I?ve read this year, and definitely a new favourite. ...

    There's no point in wishing. We can't change anything about the past. We can only remember. We can only move forward. Last December, many K-pop fans (myself included) were distraught when SHINee's Jonghyun committed suicide. Following this tragedy, EXO's Baekhyun was criticized for ...

  • Lily
    Feb 01, 2018

    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother?s condition feel like this big secret? ... ?She?s forgotten how to be happy,? I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on insta...

    TW: suicide, depression Such a beautiful debut! The writing was exquisite, I really cared for the characters, and I loved learning more about Chinese/Taiwanese culture! It was a fully immersive read that was definitely heartbreaking, but beautiful overall. The magical realism/religi...

    can't decide on a four or a five, but like... that should say something either way?? cathartic, emotive, and gorgeously written, with a lead protagonist I absolutely adore. review to come! ...

    I guess I should maybe give my own book five stars? NEWS: THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER debuted on the New York Times Bestseller list and the Indie Bestseller list! It also was named by the Wall Street Journal as one of the top twelve books of the season, was #5 on the INDIE ...

    This book hit home for me. From Leigh losing her mom to how she had to grow up being biracial. Just a beautiful and heartfelt story. ...

    this is not a bad book it?s not!! I?m enjoying it!!! however, it is VERY slow (since it is focused around Leigh?s grief), and usually, I?m fine with slow books. but I can currently feel myself on the edge of a slump and I will not let a slow book drag me down into that h...

    I'm proud of my Asian heritage. That said, there are some things upon which the Asian culture can improve in general, and one of the major issues is how we treat mental illness. It is a stigma. It is ignored until one explodes. Even in the US, Asian-American women have a high rates of ...

    Beautiful and heartbreaking. Easily one of the best books I?ve read this year, and definitely a new favourite. ...

    There's no point in wishing. We can't change anything about the past. We can only remember. We can only move forward. Last December, many K-pop fans (myself included) were distraught when SHINee's Jonghyun committed suicide. Following this tragedy, EXO's Baekhyun was criticized for ...

    Basically, I ditched all my would-be current reads and everything else in my life for this book (with Hamiltrash #1?s blessing), and it kind of (?) lived up to being one of my most anticipated 2018 releases. (rtc) Pretty, pretty please, let me love this. * A COPY OF THIS BOO...

  • BookishStitcher
    Mar 20, 2018

    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother?s condition feel like this big secret? ... ?She?s forgotten how to be happy,? I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on insta...

    TW: suicide, depression Such a beautiful debut! The writing was exquisite, I really cared for the characters, and I loved learning more about Chinese/Taiwanese culture! It was a fully immersive read that was definitely heartbreaking, but beautiful overall. The magical realism/religi...

    can't decide on a four or a five, but like... that should say something either way?? cathartic, emotive, and gorgeously written, with a lead protagonist I absolutely adore. review to come! ...

    I guess I should maybe give my own book five stars? NEWS: THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER debuted on the New York Times Bestseller list and the Indie Bestseller list! It also was named by the Wall Street Journal as one of the top twelve books of the season, was #5 on the INDIE ...

    This book hit home for me. From Leigh losing her mom to how she had to grow up being biracial. Just a beautiful and heartfelt story. ...

    this is not a bad book it?s not!! I?m enjoying it!!! however, it is VERY slow (since it is focused around Leigh?s grief), and usually, I?m fine with slow books. but I can currently feel myself on the edge of a slump and I will not let a slow book drag me down into that h...

    I'm proud of my Asian heritage. That said, there are some things upon which the Asian culture can improve in general, and one of the major issues is how we treat mental illness. It is a stigma. It is ignored until one explodes. Even in the US, Asian-American women have a high rates of ...

    Beautiful and heartbreaking. Easily one of the best books I?ve read this year, and definitely a new favourite. ...

    There's no point in wishing. We can't change anything about the past. We can only remember. We can only move forward. Last December, many K-pop fans (myself included) were distraught when SHINee's Jonghyun committed suicide. Following this tragedy, EXO's Baekhyun was criticized for ...

    Basically, I ditched all my would-be current reads and everything else in my life for this book (with Hamiltrash #1?s blessing), and it kind of (?) lived up to being one of my most anticipated 2018 releases. (rtc) Pretty, pretty please, let me love this. * A COPY OF THIS BOO...

    Lovely writing but too much color talk! ...

    3.75/5 My mother is a bird. This isn?t like some William Faulkner stream-of-consciousness metaphorical crap. My mother. Is literally. A bird. First of all, I love the quote above; such a phenomenal and humorous way to start a novel. Wow, okay, this book went through so man...

    Where do I even begin? I was immediately drawn to this book because of the main character who is biracial (half-white, half-Asian) like myself. Little did I know what a wild and heartfelt journey this book would be. The great thing is that I won this review copy from a giveaway host...

    Here is my mother, with wings instead of hands, and feathers instead of hair. Here is my mother, the reddest of brilliant reds, the color of my love and my fear, all of my fiercest feelings trailing after her in the sky like the tail of a comet. Trigger Warning: Suicide, depressio...

    I cannot put into words how much I absolutely loved this book. Love is not even the correct word here. It?s more like staring obsessively at this book all day, tweeting about it, letting it claim my heart, thinking about it all the time, wanting to own a thousand copies of it. Th...

    This book is simply incredible. I absorbed it into my soul and cried like a baby when I finished it. I then put it on my review list and it?s taken me a while to come back to tell you all about it, but here I am. ?How could a person like her be depressed? She was full of energy ...

    There is not a single thing in this book I did not love. The lush writing. The use of color. The exploration of family secrets and stories. Of culture. Or belief. But the thing that hit hardest was the way depression is rendered. This is a book about grief in the wake of suicide th...

    I think this is one of the best-written debuts of the year. I loved the magical realism elements being used to explain a history of mental illness and grief and hats off for the immensely beautiful prose sprinkled with Chinese and Taiwanese. My only qualm is that I wish the romance was...

    You can find this review and others at arctic books 3.5/5 stars. I hadn?t heard much about THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER before I was lucky enough to receive a copy of this gorgeous novel in my mailbox. After I read the synopsis, I became so excited to read this, especially b...

    This is the most beautiful book I have read in such a long time. The astonishing color of after is a book that will stay with me for rest of my life. It was incredibly hard to read but so cathartic for me. I am so grateful for this story. I want everyone to read this but I know that th...

    Why I Love It by BOTM Judge Liberty Hardy Kissing her longtime bff Axel in his basement was the biggest event in Leigh Chen Sanders? life so far, until she gets home and learns her mother has taken her own life. Set adrift by her devastation, Leigh shuts herself off from the worl...

    I DEVOURED this book on the plane. The writing is absolutely exquisite and heart-wrenching, and the characters well-rendered and humanly flawed. A truly moving portrait of grief, complicated family relationships, and the secrets we keep even from our loved ones. Maybe especially our lo...

    Releasing Today March 20, 2018! After losing her mother to depression/suicide Leigh goes on a journey to Taiwan to connect with her mother's family whom she has never known. Along the way Leigh learns so much about her mother, family, love, and loss. Filled with magical realism this...

  • Liz Barnsley
    Dec 20, 2017

    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother?s condition feel like this big secret? ... ?She?s forgotten how to be happy,? I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on insta...

    TW: suicide, depression Such a beautiful debut! The writing was exquisite, I really cared for the characters, and I loved learning more about Chinese/Taiwanese culture! It was a fully immersive read that was definitely heartbreaking, but beautiful overall. The magical realism/religi...

    can't decide on a four or a five, but like... that should say something either way?? cathartic, emotive, and gorgeously written, with a lead protagonist I absolutely adore. review to come! ...

    I guess I should maybe give my own book five stars? NEWS: THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER debuted on the New York Times Bestseller list and the Indie Bestseller list! It also was named by the Wall Street Journal as one of the top twelve books of the season, was #5 on the INDIE ...

    This book hit home for me. From Leigh losing her mom to how she had to grow up being biracial. Just a beautiful and heartfelt story. ...

    this is not a bad book it?s not!! I?m enjoying it!!! however, it is VERY slow (since it is focused around Leigh?s grief), and usually, I?m fine with slow books. but I can currently feel myself on the edge of a slump and I will not let a slow book drag me down into that h...

    I'm proud of my Asian heritage. That said, there are some things upon which the Asian culture can improve in general, and one of the major issues is how we treat mental illness. It is a stigma. It is ignored until one explodes. Even in the US, Asian-American women have a high rates of ...

    Beautiful and heartbreaking. Easily one of the best books I?ve read this year, and definitely a new favourite. ...

    There's no point in wishing. We can't change anything about the past. We can only remember. We can only move forward. Last December, many K-pop fans (myself included) were distraught when SHINee's Jonghyun committed suicide. Following this tragedy, EXO's Baekhyun was criticized for ...

    Basically, I ditched all my would-be current reads and everything else in my life for this book (with Hamiltrash #1?s blessing), and it kind of (?) lived up to being one of my most anticipated 2018 releases. (rtc) Pretty, pretty please, let me love this. * A COPY OF THIS BOO...

    Lovely writing but too much color talk! ...

    3.75/5 My mother is a bird. This isn?t like some William Faulkner stream-of-consciousness metaphorical crap. My mother. Is literally. A bird. First of all, I love the quote above; such a phenomenal and humorous way to start a novel. Wow, okay, this book went through so man...

    Where do I even begin? I was immediately drawn to this book because of the main character who is biracial (half-white, half-Asian) like myself. Little did I know what a wild and heartfelt journey this book would be. The great thing is that I won this review copy from a giveaway host...

    Here is my mother, with wings instead of hands, and feathers instead of hair. Here is my mother, the reddest of brilliant reds, the color of my love and my fear, all of my fiercest feelings trailing after her in the sky like the tail of a comet. Trigger Warning: Suicide, depressio...

    I cannot put into words how much I absolutely loved this book. Love is not even the correct word here. It?s more like staring obsessively at this book all day, tweeting about it, letting it claim my heart, thinking about it all the time, wanting to own a thousand copies of it. Th...

    This book is simply incredible. I absorbed it into my soul and cried like a baby when I finished it. I then put it on my review list and it?s taken me a while to come back to tell you all about it, but here I am. ?How could a person like her be depressed? She was full of energy ...

  • Eryn☘
    Apr 02, 2018

    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother?s condition feel like this big secret? ... ?She?s forgotten how to be happy,? I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on insta...

    TW: suicide, depression Such a beautiful debut! The writing was exquisite, I really cared for the characters, and I loved learning more about Chinese/Taiwanese culture! It was a fully immersive read that was definitely heartbreaking, but beautiful overall. The magical realism/religi...

    can't decide on a four or a five, but like... that should say something either way?? cathartic, emotive, and gorgeously written, with a lead protagonist I absolutely adore. review to come! ...

    I guess I should maybe give my own book five stars? NEWS: THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER debuted on the New York Times Bestseller list and the Indie Bestseller list! It also was named by the Wall Street Journal as one of the top twelve books of the season, was #5 on the INDIE ...

    This book hit home for me. From Leigh losing her mom to how she had to grow up being biracial. Just a beautiful and heartfelt story. ...

    this is not a bad book it?s not!! I?m enjoying it!!! however, it is VERY slow (since it is focused around Leigh?s grief), and usually, I?m fine with slow books. but I can currently feel myself on the edge of a slump and I will not let a slow book drag me down into that h...

    I'm proud of my Asian heritage. That said, there are some things upon which the Asian culture can improve in general, and one of the major issues is how we treat mental illness. It is a stigma. It is ignored until one explodes. Even in the US, Asian-American women have a high rates of ...

    Beautiful and heartbreaking. Easily one of the best books I?ve read this year, and definitely a new favourite. ...

    There's no point in wishing. We can't change anything about the past. We can only remember. We can only move forward. Last December, many K-pop fans (myself included) were distraught when SHINee's Jonghyun committed suicide. Following this tragedy, EXO's Baekhyun was criticized for ...

    Basically, I ditched all my would-be current reads and everything else in my life for this book (with Hamiltrash #1?s blessing), and it kind of (?) lived up to being one of my most anticipated 2018 releases. (rtc) Pretty, pretty please, let me love this. * A COPY OF THIS BOO...

    Lovely writing but too much color talk! ...

    3.75/5 My mother is a bird. This isn?t like some William Faulkner stream-of-consciousness metaphorical crap. My mother. Is literally. A bird. First of all, I love the quote above; such a phenomenal and humorous way to start a novel. Wow, okay, this book went through so man...

  • Renee
    Mar 20, 2018

    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother?s condition feel like this big secret? ... ?She?s forgotten how to be happy,? I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on insta...

    TW: suicide, depression Such a beautiful debut! The writing was exquisite, I really cared for the characters, and I loved learning more about Chinese/Taiwanese culture! It was a fully immersive read that was definitely heartbreaking, but beautiful overall. The magical realism/religi...

    can't decide on a four or a five, but like... that should say something either way?? cathartic, emotive, and gorgeously written, with a lead protagonist I absolutely adore. review to come! ...

    I guess I should maybe give my own book five stars? NEWS: THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER debuted on the New York Times Bestseller list and the Indie Bestseller list! It also was named by the Wall Street Journal as one of the top twelve books of the season, was #5 on the INDIE ...

    This book hit home for me. From Leigh losing her mom to how she had to grow up being biracial. Just a beautiful and heartfelt story. ...

    this is not a bad book it?s not!! I?m enjoying it!!! however, it is VERY slow (since it is focused around Leigh?s grief), and usually, I?m fine with slow books. but I can currently feel myself on the edge of a slump and I will not let a slow book drag me down into that h...

    I'm proud of my Asian heritage. That said, there are some things upon which the Asian culture can improve in general, and one of the major issues is how we treat mental illness. It is a stigma. It is ignored until one explodes. Even in the US, Asian-American women have a high rates of ...

    Beautiful and heartbreaking. Easily one of the best books I?ve read this year, and definitely a new favourite. ...

    There's no point in wishing. We can't change anything about the past. We can only remember. We can only move forward. Last December, many K-pop fans (myself included) were distraught when SHINee's Jonghyun committed suicide. Following this tragedy, EXO's Baekhyun was criticized for ...

    Basically, I ditched all my would-be current reads and everything else in my life for this book (with Hamiltrash #1?s blessing), and it kind of (?) lived up to being one of my most anticipated 2018 releases. (rtc) Pretty, pretty please, let me love this. * A COPY OF THIS BOO...

    Lovely writing but too much color talk! ...

    3.75/5 My mother is a bird. This isn?t like some William Faulkner stream-of-consciousness metaphorical crap. My mother. Is literally. A bird. First of all, I love the quote above; such a phenomenal and humorous way to start a novel. Wow, okay, this book went through so man...

    Where do I even begin? I was immediately drawn to this book because of the main character who is biracial (half-white, half-Asian) like myself. Little did I know what a wild and heartfelt journey this book would be. The great thing is that I won this review copy from a giveaway host...

    Here is my mother, with wings instead of hands, and feathers instead of hair. Here is my mother, the reddest of brilliant reds, the color of my love and my fear, all of my fiercest feelings trailing after her in the sky like the tail of a comet. Trigger Warning: Suicide, depressio...

    I cannot put into words how much I absolutely loved this book. Love is not even the correct word here. It?s more like staring obsessively at this book all day, tweeting about it, letting it claim my heart, thinking about it all the time, wanting to own a thousand copies of it. Th...

    This book is simply incredible. I absorbed it into my soul and cried like a baby when I finished it. I then put it on my review list and it?s taken me a while to come back to tell you all about it, but here I am. ?How could a person like her be depressed? She was full of energy ...

    There is not a single thing in this book I did not love. The lush writing. The use of color. The exploration of family secrets and stories. Of culture. Or belief. But the thing that hit hardest was the way depression is rendered. This is a book about grief in the wake of suicide th...

    I think this is one of the best-written debuts of the year. I loved the magical realism elements being used to explain a history of mental illness and grief and hats off for the immensely beautiful prose sprinkled with Chinese and Taiwanese. My only qualm is that I wish the romance was...

    You can find this review and others at arctic books 3.5/5 stars. I hadn?t heard much about THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER before I was lucky enough to receive a copy of this gorgeous novel in my mailbox. After I read the synopsis, I became so excited to read this, especially b...

    This is the most beautiful book I have read in such a long time. The astonishing color of after is a book that will stay with me for rest of my life. It was incredibly hard to read but so cathartic for me. I am so grateful for this story. I want everyone to read this but I know that th...

    Why I Love It by BOTM Judge Liberty Hardy Kissing her longtime bff Axel in his basement was the biggest event in Leigh Chen Sanders? life so far, until she gets home and learns her mother has taken her own life. Set adrift by her devastation, Leigh shuts herself off from the worl...

    I DEVOURED this book on the plane. The writing is absolutely exquisite and heart-wrenching, and the characters well-rendered and humanly flawed. A truly moving portrait of grief, complicated family relationships, and the secrets we keep even from our loved ones. Maybe especially our lo...

    Releasing Today March 20, 2018! After losing her mother to depression/suicide Leigh goes on a journey to Taiwan to connect with her mother's family whom she has never known. Along the way Leigh learns so much about her mother, family, love, and loss. Filled with magical realism this...

    It. Is. EVERYTHING. ...

    3.5 stars covers lots of serious topics like depression, suicide, letting go. only thing I didn't like was it was turning in to wild goose chase of this red bird. focuses mostly on Leigh's mental & emotional state as she goes through the loss of her mother. all most all the sto...

    The Astonishing Color of After Emily X.R. Pan Rating: 5/5 Note:Special thanks to Hachette Books for providing a copy for review. I love, love, LOVE THIS BOOK. This has everything I love in it: beautiful and lyrical writing, an accurate representation of Taiwanese culture, won...

    When I make my Book of the Month selections, it?s not always a guarantee that I will enjoy the book I choose. With The Astonishing Color of After, I had a feeling I was going to really love reading it before I even started. I was right. TACoA is a magnificent story of the love tha...

  • Hailey (HaileyinBookland)
    Feb 20, 2018

    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother?s condition feel like this big secret? ... ?She?s forgotten how to be happy,? I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on insta...

    TW: suicide, depression Such a beautiful debut! The writing was exquisite, I really cared for the characters, and I loved learning more about Chinese/Taiwanese culture! It was a fully immersive read that was definitely heartbreaking, but beautiful overall. The magical realism/religi...

  • ilsa ➹
    Mar 09, 2018

    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother?s condition feel like this big secret? ... ?She?s forgotten how to be happy,? I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on insta...

    TW: suicide, depression Such a beautiful debut! The writing was exquisite, I really cared for the characters, and I loved learning more about Chinese/Taiwanese culture! It was a fully immersive read that was definitely heartbreaking, but beautiful overall. The magical realism/religi...

    can't decide on a four or a five, but like... that should say something either way?? cathartic, emotive, and gorgeously written, with a lead protagonist I absolutely adore. review to come! ...

    I guess I should maybe give my own book five stars? NEWS: THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER debuted on the New York Times Bestseller list and the Indie Bestseller list! It also was named by the Wall Street Journal as one of the top twelve books of the season, was #5 on the INDIE ...

    This book hit home for me. From Leigh losing her mom to how she had to grow up being biracial. Just a beautiful and heartfelt story. ...

    this is not a bad book it?s not!! I?m enjoying it!!! however, it is VERY slow (since it is focused around Leigh?s grief), and usually, I?m fine with slow books. but I can currently feel myself on the edge of a slump and I will not let a slow book drag me down into that h...

    I'm proud of my Asian heritage. That said, there are some things upon which the Asian culture can improve in general, and one of the major issues is how we treat mental illness. It is a stigma. It is ignored until one explodes. Even in the US, Asian-American women have a high rates of ...

    Beautiful and heartbreaking. Easily one of the best books I?ve read this year, and definitely a new favourite. ...

    There's no point in wishing. We can't change anything about the past. We can only remember. We can only move forward. Last December, many K-pop fans (myself included) were distraught when SHINee's Jonghyun committed suicide. Following this tragedy, EXO's Baekhyun was criticized for ...

    Basically, I ditched all my would-be current reads and everything else in my life for this book (with Hamiltrash #1?s blessing), and it kind of (?) lived up to being one of my most anticipated 2018 releases. (rtc) Pretty, pretty please, let me love this. * A COPY OF THIS BOO...

    Lovely writing but too much color talk! ...

    3.75/5 My mother is a bird. This isn?t like some William Faulkner stream-of-consciousness metaphorical crap. My mother. Is literally. A bird. First of all, I love the quote above; such a phenomenal and humorous way to start a novel. Wow, okay, this book went through so man...

    Where do I even begin? I was immediately drawn to this book because of the main character who is biracial (half-white, half-Asian) like myself. Little did I know what a wild and heartfelt journey this book would be. The great thing is that I won this review copy from a giveaway host...

    Here is my mother, with wings instead of hands, and feathers instead of hair. Here is my mother, the reddest of brilliant reds, the color of my love and my fear, all of my fiercest feelings trailing after her in the sky like the tail of a comet. Trigger Warning: Suicide, depressio...

    I cannot put into words how much I absolutely loved this book. Love is not even the correct word here. It?s more like staring obsessively at this book all day, tweeting about it, letting it claim my heart, thinking about it all the time, wanting to own a thousand copies of it. Th...

  • Candace Robinson
    Mar 09, 2018

    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother?s condition feel like this big secret? ... ?She?s forgotten how to be happy,? I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on insta...

    TW: suicide, depression Such a beautiful debut! The writing was exquisite, I really cared for the characters, and I loved learning more about Chinese/Taiwanese culture! It was a fully immersive read that was definitely heartbreaking, but beautiful overall. The magical realism/religi...

    can't decide on a four or a five, but like... that should say something either way?? cathartic, emotive, and gorgeously written, with a lead protagonist I absolutely adore. review to come! ...

    I guess I should maybe give my own book five stars? NEWS: THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER debuted on the New York Times Bestseller list and the Indie Bestseller list! It also was named by the Wall Street Journal as one of the top twelve books of the season, was #5 on the INDIE ...

    This book hit home for me. From Leigh losing her mom to how she had to grow up being biracial. Just a beautiful and heartfelt story. ...

    this is not a bad book it?s not!! I?m enjoying it!!! however, it is VERY slow (since it is focused around Leigh?s grief), and usually, I?m fine with slow books. but I can currently feel myself on the edge of a slump and I will not let a slow book drag me down into that h...

    I'm proud of my Asian heritage. That said, there are some things upon which the Asian culture can improve in general, and one of the major issues is how we treat mental illness. It is a stigma. It is ignored until one explodes. Even in the US, Asian-American women have a high rates of ...

    Beautiful and heartbreaking. Easily one of the best books I?ve read this year, and definitely a new favourite. ...

    There's no point in wishing. We can't change anything about the past. We can only remember. We can only move forward. Last December, many K-pop fans (myself included) were distraught when SHINee's Jonghyun committed suicide. Following this tragedy, EXO's Baekhyun was criticized for ...

    Basically, I ditched all my would-be current reads and everything else in my life for this book (with Hamiltrash #1?s blessing), and it kind of (?) lived up to being one of my most anticipated 2018 releases. (rtc) Pretty, pretty please, let me love this. * A COPY OF THIS BOO...

    Lovely writing but too much color talk! ...

  • April
    Apr 04, 2018

    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother?s condition feel like this big secret? ... ?She?s forgotten how to be happy,? I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on insta...

    TW: suicide, depression Such a beautiful debut! The writing was exquisite, I really cared for the characters, and I loved learning more about Chinese/Taiwanese culture! It was a fully immersive read that was definitely heartbreaking, but beautiful overall. The magical realism/religi...

    can't decide on a four or a five, but like... that should say something either way?? cathartic, emotive, and gorgeously written, with a lead protagonist I absolutely adore. review to come! ...

    I guess I should maybe give my own book five stars? NEWS: THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER debuted on the New York Times Bestseller list and the Indie Bestseller list! It also was named by the Wall Street Journal as one of the top twelve books of the season, was #5 on the INDIE ...

    This book hit home for me. From Leigh losing her mom to how she had to grow up being biracial. Just a beautiful and heartfelt story. ...

  • Korrina  (OwlCrate)
    Dec 12, 2017

    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother?s condition feel like this big secret? ... ?She?s forgotten how to be happy,? I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on insta...

    TW: suicide, depression Such a beautiful debut! The writing was exquisite, I really cared for the characters, and I loved learning more about Chinese/Taiwanese culture! It was a fully immersive read that was definitely heartbreaking, but beautiful overall. The magical realism/religi...

    can't decide on a four or a five, but like... that should say something either way?? cathartic, emotive, and gorgeously written, with a lead protagonist I absolutely adore. review to come! ...

    I guess I should maybe give my own book five stars? NEWS: THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER debuted on the New York Times Bestseller list and the Indie Bestseller list! It also was named by the Wall Street Journal as one of the top twelve books of the season, was #5 on the INDIE ...

    This book hit home for me. From Leigh losing her mom to how she had to grow up being biracial. Just a beautiful and heartfelt story. ...

    this is not a bad book it?s not!! I?m enjoying it!!! however, it is VERY slow (since it is focused around Leigh?s grief), and usually, I?m fine with slow books. but I can currently feel myself on the edge of a slump and I will not let a slow book drag me down into that h...

    I'm proud of my Asian heritage. That said, there are some things upon which the Asian culture can improve in general, and one of the major issues is how we treat mental illness. It is a stigma. It is ignored until one explodes. Even in the US, Asian-American women have a high rates of ...

    Beautiful and heartbreaking. Easily one of the best books I?ve read this year, and definitely a new favourite. ...

  • alice (arctic books)
    Jan 10, 2018

    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother?s condition feel like this big secret? ... ?She?s forgotten how to be happy,? I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on insta...

    TW: suicide, depression Such a beautiful debut! The writing was exquisite, I really cared for the characters, and I loved learning more about Chinese/Taiwanese culture! It was a fully immersive read that was definitely heartbreaking, but beautiful overall. The magical realism/religi...

    can't decide on a four or a five, but like... that should say something either way?? cathartic, emotive, and gorgeously written, with a lead protagonist I absolutely adore. review to come! ...

    I guess I should maybe give my own book five stars? NEWS: THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER debuted on the New York Times Bestseller list and the Indie Bestseller list! It also was named by the Wall Street Journal as one of the top twelve books of the season, was #5 on the INDIE ...

    This book hit home for me. From Leigh losing her mom to how she had to grow up being biracial. Just a beautiful and heartfelt story. ...

    this is not a bad book it?s not!! I?m enjoying it!!! however, it is VERY slow (since it is focused around Leigh?s grief), and usually, I?m fine with slow books. but I can currently feel myself on the edge of a slump and I will not let a slow book drag me down into that h...

    I'm proud of my Asian heritage. That said, there are some things upon which the Asian culture can improve in general, and one of the major issues is how we treat mental illness. It is a stigma. It is ignored until one explodes. Even in the US, Asian-American women have a high rates of ...

    Beautiful and heartbreaking. Easily one of the best books I?ve read this year, and definitely a new favourite. ...

    There's no point in wishing. We can't change anything about the past. We can only remember. We can only move forward. Last December, many K-pop fans (myself included) were distraught when SHINee's Jonghyun committed suicide. Following this tragedy, EXO's Baekhyun was criticized for ...

    Basically, I ditched all my would-be current reads and everything else in my life for this book (with Hamiltrash #1?s blessing), and it kind of (?) lived up to being one of my most anticipated 2018 releases. (rtc) Pretty, pretty please, let me love this. * A COPY OF THIS BOO...

    Lovely writing but too much color talk! ...

    3.75/5 My mother is a bird. This isn?t like some William Faulkner stream-of-consciousness metaphorical crap. My mother. Is literally. A bird. First of all, I love the quote above; such a phenomenal and humorous way to start a novel. Wow, okay, this book went through so man...

    Where do I even begin? I was immediately drawn to this book because of the main character who is biracial (half-white, half-Asian) like myself. Little did I know what a wild and heartfelt journey this book would be. The great thing is that I won this review copy from a giveaway host...

    Here is my mother, with wings instead of hands, and feathers instead of hair. Here is my mother, the reddest of brilliant reds, the color of my love and my fear, all of my fiercest feelings trailing after her in the sky like the tail of a comet. Trigger Warning: Suicide, depressio...

    I cannot put into words how much I absolutely loved this book. Love is not even the correct word here. It?s more like staring obsessively at this book all day, tweeting about it, letting it claim my heart, thinking about it all the time, wanting to own a thousand copies of it. Th...

    This book is simply incredible. I absorbed it into my soul and cried like a baby when I finished it. I then put it on my review list and it?s taken me a while to come back to tell you all about it, but here I am. ?How could a person like her be depressed? She was full of energy ...

    There is not a single thing in this book I did not love. The lush writing. The use of color. The exploration of family secrets and stories. Of culture. Or belief. But the thing that hit hardest was the way depression is rendered. This is a book about grief in the wake of suicide th...

    I think this is one of the best-written debuts of the year. I loved the magical realism elements being used to explain a history of mental illness and grief and hats off for the immensely beautiful prose sprinkled with Chinese and Taiwanese. My only qualm is that I wish the romance was...

    You can find this review and others at arctic books 3.5/5 stars. I hadn?t heard much about THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER before I was lucky enough to receive a copy of this gorgeous novel in my mailbox. After I read the synopsis, I became so excited to read this, especially b...

  • Zyra
    Apr 16, 2018

    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother?s condition feel like this big secret? ... ?She?s forgotten how to be happy,? I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on insta...

    TW: suicide, depression Such a beautiful debut! The writing was exquisite, I really cared for the characters, and I loved learning more about Chinese/Taiwanese culture! It was a fully immersive read that was definitely heartbreaking, but beautiful overall. The magical realism/religi...

    can't decide on a four or a five, but like... that should say something either way?? cathartic, emotive, and gorgeously written, with a lead protagonist I absolutely adore. review to come! ...

    I guess I should maybe give my own book five stars? NEWS: THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER debuted on the New York Times Bestseller list and the Indie Bestseller list! It also was named by the Wall Street Journal as one of the top twelve books of the season, was #5 on the INDIE ...

    This book hit home for me. From Leigh losing her mom to how she had to grow up being biracial. Just a beautiful and heartfelt story. ...

    this is not a bad book it?s not!! I?m enjoying it!!! however, it is VERY slow (since it is focused around Leigh?s grief), and usually, I?m fine with slow books. but I can currently feel myself on the edge of a slump and I will not let a slow book drag me down into that h...

    I'm proud of my Asian heritage. That said, there are some things upon which the Asian culture can improve in general, and one of the major issues is how we treat mental illness. It is a stigma. It is ignored until one explodes. Even in the US, Asian-American women have a high rates of ...

    Beautiful and heartbreaking. Easily one of the best books I?ve read this year, and definitely a new favourite. ...

    There's no point in wishing. We can't change anything about the past. We can only remember. We can only move forward. Last December, many K-pop fans (myself included) were distraught when SHINee's Jonghyun committed suicide. Following this tragedy, EXO's Baekhyun was criticized for ...

    Basically, I ditched all my would-be current reads and everything else in my life for this book (with Hamiltrash #1?s blessing), and it kind of (?) lived up to being one of my most anticipated 2018 releases. (rtc) Pretty, pretty please, let me love this. * A COPY OF THIS BOO...

    Lovely writing but too much color talk! ...

    3.75/5 My mother is a bird. This isn?t like some William Faulkner stream-of-consciousness metaphorical crap. My mother. Is literally. A bird. First of all, I love the quote above; such a phenomenal and humorous way to start a novel. Wow, okay, this book went through so man...

    Where do I even begin? I was immediately drawn to this book because of the main character who is biracial (half-white, half-Asian) like myself. Little did I know what a wild and heartfelt journey this book would be. The great thing is that I won this review copy from a giveaway host...

    Here is my mother, with wings instead of hands, and feathers instead of hair. Here is my mother, the reddest of brilliant reds, the color of my love and my fear, all of my fiercest feelings trailing after her in the sky like the tail of a comet. Trigger Warning: Suicide, depressio...

    I cannot put into words how much I absolutely loved this book. Love is not even the correct word here. It?s more like staring obsessively at this book all day, tweeting about it, letting it claim my heart, thinking about it all the time, wanting to own a thousand copies of it. Th...

    This book is simply incredible. I absorbed it into my soul and cried like a baby when I finished it. I then put it on my review list and it?s taken me a while to come back to tell you all about it, but here I am. ?How could a person like her be depressed? She was full of energy ...

    There is not a single thing in this book I did not love. The lush writing. The use of color. The exploration of family secrets and stories. Of culture. Or belief. But the thing that hit hardest was the way depression is rendered. This is a book about grief in the wake of suicide th...

    I think this is one of the best-written debuts of the year. I loved the magical realism elements being used to explain a history of mental illness and grief and hats off for the immensely beautiful prose sprinkled with Chinese and Taiwanese. My only qualm is that I wish the romance was...

    You can find this review and others at arctic books 3.5/5 stars. I hadn?t heard much about THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER before I was lucky enough to receive a copy of this gorgeous novel in my mailbox. After I read the synopsis, I became so excited to read this, especially b...

    This is the most beautiful book I have read in such a long time. The astonishing color of after is a book that will stay with me for rest of my life. It was incredibly hard to read but so cathartic for me. I am so grateful for this story. I want everyone to read this but I know that th...

    Why I Love It by BOTM Judge Liberty Hardy Kissing her longtime bff Axel in his basement was the biggest event in Leigh Chen Sanders? life so far, until she gets home and learns her mother has taken her own life. Set adrift by her devastation, Leigh shuts herself off from the worl...

    I DEVOURED this book on the plane. The writing is absolutely exquisite and heart-wrenching, and the characters well-rendered and humanly flawed. A truly moving portrait of grief, complicated family relationships, and the secrets we keep even from our loved ones. Maybe especially our lo...

    Releasing Today March 20, 2018! After losing her mother to depression/suicide Leigh goes on a journey to Taiwan to connect with her mother's family whom she has never known. Along the way Leigh learns so much about her mother, family, love, and loss. Filled with magical realism this...

    It. Is. EVERYTHING. ...

    3.5 stars covers lots of serious topics like depression, suicide, letting go. only thing I didn't like was it was turning in to wild goose chase of this red bird. focuses mostly on Leigh's mental & emotional state as she goes through the loss of her mother. all most all the sto...

  • Book of the Month
    Mar 01, 2018

    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother?s condition feel like this big secret? ... ?She?s forgotten how to be happy,? I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on insta...

    TW: suicide, depression Such a beautiful debut! The writing was exquisite, I really cared for the characters, and I loved learning more about Chinese/Taiwanese culture! It was a fully immersive read that was definitely heartbreaking, but beautiful overall. The magical realism/religi...

    can't decide on a four or a five, but like... that should say something either way?? cathartic, emotive, and gorgeously written, with a lead protagonist I absolutely adore. review to come! ...

    I guess I should maybe give my own book five stars? NEWS: THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER debuted on the New York Times Bestseller list and the Indie Bestseller list! It also was named by the Wall Street Journal as one of the top twelve books of the season, was #5 on the INDIE ...

    This book hit home for me. From Leigh losing her mom to how she had to grow up being biracial. Just a beautiful and heartfelt story. ...

    this is not a bad book it?s not!! I?m enjoying it!!! however, it is VERY slow (since it is focused around Leigh?s grief), and usually, I?m fine with slow books. but I can currently feel myself on the edge of a slump and I will not let a slow book drag me down into that h...

    I'm proud of my Asian heritage. That said, there are some things upon which the Asian culture can improve in general, and one of the major issues is how we treat mental illness. It is a stigma. It is ignored until one explodes. Even in the US, Asian-American women have a high rates of ...

    Beautiful and heartbreaking. Easily one of the best books I?ve read this year, and definitely a new favourite. ...

    There's no point in wishing. We can't change anything about the past. We can only remember. We can only move forward. Last December, many K-pop fans (myself included) were distraught when SHINee's Jonghyun committed suicide. Following this tragedy, EXO's Baekhyun was criticized for ...

    Basically, I ditched all my would-be current reads and everything else in my life for this book (with Hamiltrash #1?s blessing), and it kind of (?) lived up to being one of my most anticipated 2018 releases. (rtc) Pretty, pretty please, let me love this. * A COPY OF THIS BOO...

    Lovely writing but too much color talk! ...

    3.75/5 My mother is a bird. This isn?t like some William Faulkner stream-of-consciousness metaphorical crap. My mother. Is literally. A bird. First of all, I love the quote above; such a phenomenal and humorous way to start a novel. Wow, okay, this book went through so man...

    Where do I even begin? I was immediately drawn to this book because of the main character who is biracial (half-white, half-Asian) like myself. Little did I know what a wild and heartfelt journey this book would be. The great thing is that I won this review copy from a giveaway host...

    Here is my mother, with wings instead of hands, and feathers instead of hair. Here is my mother, the reddest of brilliant reds, the color of my love and my fear, all of my fiercest feelings trailing after her in the sky like the tail of a comet. Trigger Warning: Suicide, depressio...

    I cannot put into words how much I absolutely loved this book. Love is not even the correct word here. It?s more like staring obsessively at this book all day, tweeting about it, letting it claim my heart, thinking about it all the time, wanting to own a thousand copies of it. Th...

    This book is simply incredible. I absorbed it into my soul and cried like a baby when I finished it. I then put it on my review list and it?s taken me a while to come back to tell you all about it, but here I am. ?How could a person like her be depressed? She was full of energy ...

    There is not a single thing in this book I did not love. The lush writing. The use of color. The exploration of family secrets and stories. Of culture. Or belief. But the thing that hit hardest was the way depression is rendered. This is a book about grief in the wake of suicide th...

    I think this is one of the best-written debuts of the year. I loved the magical realism elements being used to explain a history of mental illness and grief and hats off for the immensely beautiful prose sprinkled with Chinese and Taiwanese. My only qualm is that I wish the romance was...

    You can find this review and others at arctic books 3.5/5 stars. I hadn?t heard much about THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER before I was lucky enough to receive a copy of this gorgeous novel in my mailbox. After I read the synopsis, I became so excited to read this, especially b...

    This is the most beautiful book I have read in such a long time. The astonishing color of after is a book that will stay with me for rest of my life. It was incredibly hard to read but so cathartic for me. I am so grateful for this story. I want everyone to read this but I know that th...

    Why I Love It by BOTM Judge Liberty Hardy Kissing her longtime bff Axel in his basement was the biggest event in Leigh Chen Sanders? life so far, until she gets home and learns her mother has taken her own life. Set adrift by her devastation, Leigh shuts herself off from the worl...

  • Elise (TheBookishActress)
    Sep 24, 2017

    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother?s condition feel like this big secret? ... ?She?s forgotten how to be happy,? I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on insta...

    TW: suicide, depression Such a beautiful debut! The writing was exquisite, I really cared for the characters, and I loved learning more about Chinese/Taiwanese culture! It was a fully immersive read that was definitely heartbreaking, but beautiful overall. The magical realism/religi...

    can't decide on a four or a five, but like... that should say something either way?? cathartic, emotive, and gorgeously written, with a lead protagonist I absolutely adore. review to come! ...

  • Becca | The Book Eater
    Mar 24, 2018

    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother?s condition feel like this big secret? ... ?She?s forgotten how to be happy,? I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on insta...

    TW: suicide, depression Such a beautiful debut! The writing was exquisite, I really cared for the characters, and I loved learning more about Chinese/Taiwanese culture! It was a fully immersive read that was definitely heartbreaking, but beautiful overall. The magical realism/religi...

    can't decide on a four or a five, but like... that should say something either way?? cathartic, emotive, and gorgeously written, with a lead protagonist I absolutely adore. review to come! ...

    I guess I should maybe give my own book five stars? NEWS: THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER debuted on the New York Times Bestseller list and the Indie Bestseller list! It also was named by the Wall Street Journal as one of the top twelve books of the season, was #5 on the INDIE ...

    This book hit home for me. From Leigh losing her mom to how she had to grow up being biracial. Just a beautiful and heartfelt story. ...

    this is not a bad book it?s not!! I?m enjoying it!!! however, it is VERY slow (since it is focused around Leigh?s grief), and usually, I?m fine with slow books. but I can currently feel myself on the edge of a slump and I will not let a slow book drag me down into that h...

    I'm proud of my Asian heritage. That said, there are some things upon which the Asian culture can improve in general, and one of the major issues is how we treat mental illness. It is a stigma. It is ignored until one explodes. Even in the US, Asian-American women have a high rates of ...

    Beautiful and heartbreaking. Easily one of the best books I?ve read this year, and definitely a new favourite. ...

    There's no point in wishing. We can't change anything about the past. We can only remember. We can only move forward. Last December, many K-pop fans (myself included) were distraught when SHINee's Jonghyun committed suicide. Following this tragedy, EXO's Baekhyun was criticized for ...

    Basically, I ditched all my would-be current reads and everything else in my life for this book (with Hamiltrash #1?s blessing), and it kind of (?) lived up to being one of my most anticipated 2018 releases. (rtc) Pretty, pretty please, let me love this. * A COPY OF THIS BOO...

    Lovely writing but too much color talk! ...

    3.75/5 My mother is a bird. This isn?t like some William Faulkner stream-of-consciousness metaphorical crap. My mother. Is literally. A bird. First of all, I love the quote above; such a phenomenal and humorous way to start a novel. Wow, okay, this book went through so man...

    Where do I even begin? I was immediately drawn to this book because of the main character who is biracial (half-white, half-Asian) like myself. Little did I know what a wild and heartfelt journey this book would be. The great thing is that I won this review copy from a giveaway host...

    Here is my mother, with wings instead of hands, and feathers instead of hair. Here is my mother, the reddest of brilliant reds, the color of my love and my fear, all of my fiercest feelings trailing after her in the sky like the tail of a comet. Trigger Warning: Suicide, depressio...

    I cannot put into words how much I absolutely loved this book. Love is not even the correct word here. It?s more like staring obsessively at this book all day, tweeting about it, letting it claim my heart, thinking about it all the time, wanting to own a thousand copies of it. Th...

    This book is simply incredible. I absorbed it into my soul and cried like a baby when I finished it. I then put it on my review list and it?s taken me a while to come back to tell you all about it, but here I am. ?How could a person like her be depressed? She was full of energy ...

    There is not a single thing in this book I did not love. The lush writing. The use of color. The exploration of family secrets and stories. Of culture. Or belief. But the thing that hit hardest was the way depression is rendered. This is a book about grief in the wake of suicide th...

    I think this is one of the best-written debuts of the year. I loved the magical realism elements being used to explain a history of mental illness and grief and hats off for the immensely beautiful prose sprinkled with Chinese and Taiwanese. My only qualm is that I wish the romance was...

    You can find this review and others at arctic books 3.5/5 stars. I hadn?t heard much about THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER before I was lucky enough to receive a copy of this gorgeous novel in my mailbox. After I read the synopsis, I became so excited to read this, especially b...

    This is the most beautiful book I have read in such a long time. The astonishing color of after is a book that will stay with me for rest of my life. It was incredibly hard to read but so cathartic for me. I am so grateful for this story. I want everyone to read this but I know that th...

    Why I Love It by BOTM Judge Liberty Hardy Kissing her longtime bff Axel in his basement was the biggest event in Leigh Chen Sanders? life so far, until she gets home and learns her mother has taken her own life. Set adrift by her devastation, Leigh shuts herself off from the worl...

    I DEVOURED this book on the plane. The writing is absolutely exquisite and heart-wrenching, and the characters well-rendered and humanly flawed. A truly moving portrait of grief, complicated family relationships, and the secrets we keep even from our loved ones. Maybe especially our lo...

    Releasing Today March 20, 2018! After losing her mother to depression/suicide Leigh goes on a journey to Taiwan to connect with her mother's family whom she has never known. Along the way Leigh learns so much about her mother, family, love, and loss. Filled with magical realism this...

    It. Is. EVERYTHING. ...

    3.5 stars covers lots of serious topics like depression, suicide, letting go. only thing I didn't like was it was turning in to wild goose chase of this red bird. focuses mostly on Leigh's mental & emotional state as she goes through the loss of her mother. all most all the sto...

    The Astonishing Color of After Emily X.R. Pan Rating: 5/5 Note:Special thanks to Hachette Books for providing a copy for review. I love, love, LOVE THIS BOOK. This has everything I love in it: beautiful and lyrical writing, an accurate representation of Taiwanese culture, won...

    When I make my Book of the Month selections, it?s not always a guarantee that I will enjoy the book I choose. With The Astonishing Color of After, I had a feeling I was going to really love reading it before I even started. I was right. TACoA is a magnificent story of the love tha...

    This book was beautiful, heart-wrenching, devastating, and hopeful. Leigh is half-Asian, with very little connection to her Asian heritage aside from a very small knowledge of Mandarin. When her mom commits suicide and her spirit turns into a bird, Leigh follows clues left by her mo...

  • may ➹
    Mar 16, 2018

    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother?s condition feel like this big secret? ... ?She?s forgotten how to be happy,? I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on insta...

    TW: suicide, depression Such a beautiful debut! The writing was exquisite, I really cared for the characters, and I loved learning more about Chinese/Taiwanese culture! It was a fully immersive read that was definitely heartbreaking, but beautiful overall. The magical realism/religi...

    can't decide on a four or a five, but like... that should say something either way?? cathartic, emotive, and gorgeously written, with a lead protagonist I absolutely adore. review to come! ...

    I guess I should maybe give my own book five stars? NEWS: THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER debuted on the New York Times Bestseller list and the Indie Bestseller list! It also was named by the Wall Street Journal as one of the top twelve books of the season, was #5 on the INDIE ...

    This book hit home for me. From Leigh losing her mom to how she had to grow up being biracial. Just a beautiful and heartfelt story. ...

    this is not a bad book it?s not!! I?m enjoying it!!! however, it is VERY slow (since it is focused around Leigh?s grief), and usually, I?m fine with slow books. but I can currently feel myself on the edge of a slump and I will not let a slow book drag me down into that h...

  • Kayla
    Mar 24, 2018

    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother?s condition feel like this big secret? ... ?She?s forgotten how to be happy,? I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on insta...

    TW: suicide, depression Such a beautiful debut! The writing was exquisite, I really cared for the characters, and I loved learning more about Chinese/Taiwanese culture! It was a fully immersive read that was definitely heartbreaking, but beautiful overall. The magical realism/religi...

    can't decide on a four or a five, but like... that should say something either way?? cathartic, emotive, and gorgeously written, with a lead protagonist I absolutely adore. review to come! ...

    I guess I should maybe give my own book five stars? NEWS: THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER debuted on the New York Times Bestseller list and the Indie Bestseller list! It also was named by the Wall Street Journal as one of the top twelve books of the season, was #5 on the INDIE ...

    This book hit home for me. From Leigh losing her mom to how she had to grow up being biracial. Just a beautiful and heartfelt story. ...

    this is not a bad book it?s not!! I?m enjoying it!!! however, it is VERY slow (since it is focused around Leigh?s grief), and usually, I?m fine with slow books. but I can currently feel myself on the edge of a slump and I will not let a slow book drag me down into that h...

    I'm proud of my Asian heritage. That said, there are some things upon which the Asian culture can improve in general, and one of the major issues is how we treat mental illness. It is a stigma. It is ignored until one explodes. Even in the US, Asian-American women have a high rates of ...

    Beautiful and heartbreaking. Easily one of the best books I?ve read this year, and definitely a new favourite. ...

    There's no point in wishing. We can't change anything about the past. We can only remember. We can only move forward. Last December, many K-pop fans (myself included) were distraught when SHINee's Jonghyun committed suicide. Following this tragedy, EXO's Baekhyun was criticized for ...

    Basically, I ditched all my would-be current reads and everything else in my life for this book (with Hamiltrash #1?s blessing), and it kind of (?) lived up to being one of my most anticipated 2018 releases. (rtc) Pretty, pretty please, let me love this. * A COPY OF THIS BOO...

    Lovely writing but too much color talk! ...

    3.75/5 My mother is a bird. This isn?t like some William Faulkner stream-of-consciousness metaphorical crap. My mother. Is literally. A bird. First of all, I love the quote above; such a phenomenal and humorous way to start a novel. Wow, okay, this book went through so man...

    Where do I even begin? I was immediately drawn to this book because of the main character who is biracial (half-white, half-Asian) like myself. Little did I know what a wild and heartfelt journey this book would be. The great thing is that I won this review copy from a giveaway host...

    Here is my mother, with wings instead of hands, and feathers instead of hair. Here is my mother, the reddest of brilliant reds, the color of my love and my fear, all of my fiercest feelings trailing after her in the sky like the tail of a comet. Trigger Warning: Suicide, depressio...

    I cannot put into words how much I absolutely loved this book. Love is not even the correct word here. It?s more like staring obsessively at this book all day, tweeting about it, letting it claim my heart, thinking about it all the time, wanting to own a thousand copies of it. Th...

    This book is simply incredible. I absorbed it into my soul and cried like a baby when I finished it. I then put it on my review list and it?s taken me a while to come back to tell you all about it, but here I am. ?How could a person like her be depressed? She was full of energy ...

    There is not a single thing in this book I did not love. The lush writing. The use of color. The exploration of family secrets and stories. Of culture. Or belief. But the thing that hit hardest was the way depression is rendered. This is a book about grief in the wake of suicide th...

    I think this is one of the best-written debuts of the year. I loved the magical realism elements being used to explain a history of mental illness and grief and hats off for the immensely beautiful prose sprinkled with Chinese and Taiwanese. My only qualm is that I wish the romance was...

    You can find this review and others at arctic books 3.5/5 stars. I hadn?t heard much about THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER before I was lucky enough to receive a copy of this gorgeous novel in my mailbox. After I read the synopsis, I became so excited to read this, especially b...

    This is the most beautiful book I have read in such a long time. The astonishing color of after is a book that will stay with me for rest of my life. It was incredibly hard to read but so cathartic for me. I am so grateful for this story. I want everyone to read this but I know that th...

    Why I Love It by BOTM Judge Liberty Hardy Kissing her longtime bff Axel in his basement was the biggest event in Leigh Chen Sanders? life so far, until she gets home and learns her mother has taken her own life. Set adrift by her devastation, Leigh shuts herself off from the worl...

    I DEVOURED this book on the plane. The writing is absolutely exquisite and heart-wrenching, and the characters well-rendered and humanly flawed. A truly moving portrait of grief, complicated family relationships, and the secrets we keep even from our loved ones. Maybe especially our lo...

    Releasing Today March 20, 2018! After losing her mother to depression/suicide Leigh goes on a journey to Taiwan to connect with her mother's family whom she has never known. Along the way Leigh learns so much about her mother, family, love, and loss. Filled with magical realism this...

    It. Is. EVERYTHING. ...

    3.5 stars covers lots of serious topics like depression, suicide, letting go. only thing I didn't like was it was turning in to wild goose chase of this red bird. focuses mostly on Leigh's mental & emotional state as she goes through the loss of her mother. all most all the sto...

    The Astonishing Color of After Emily X.R. Pan Rating: 5/5 Note:Special thanks to Hachette Books for providing a copy for review. I love, love, LOVE THIS BOOK. This has everything I love in it: beautiful and lyrical writing, an accurate representation of Taiwanese culture, won...

    When I make my Book of the Month selections, it?s not always a guarantee that I will enjoy the book I choose. With The Astonishing Color of After, I had a feeling I was going to really love reading it before I even started. I was right. TACoA is a magnificent story of the love tha...

    This book was beautiful, heart-wrenching, devastating, and hopeful. Leigh is half-Asian, with very little connection to her Asian heritage aside from a very small knowledge of Mandarin. When her mom commits suicide and her spirit turns into a bird, Leigh follows clues left by her mo...

    This book had such a beautiful but serious plot and was so well crafted. The writing is what shocked me though- it was so poetic and flowed really well to tell the story. Overall I was really blown away by the whimsical yet haunting story that was featured in this book. ...

  • Emily Pan
    Sep 23, 2017

    Depression, I opened my mouth to say, but the word refused to take shape. Why was it so hard to talk about this? Why did my mother?s condition feel like this big secret? ... ?She?s forgotten how to be happy,? I told him. As you can see from the picture I shared on insta...

    TW: suicide, depression Such a beautiful debut! The writing was exquisite, I really cared for the characters, and I loved learning more about Chinese/Taiwanese culture! It was a fully immersive read that was definitely heartbreaking, but beautiful overall. The magical realism/religi...

    can't decide on a four or a five, but like... that should say something either way?? cathartic, emotive, and gorgeously written, with a lead protagonist I absolutely adore. review to come! ...

    I guess I should maybe give my own book five stars? NEWS: THE ASTONISHING COLOR OF AFTER debuted on the New York Times Bestseller list and the Indie Bestseller list! It also was named by the Wall Street Journal as one of the top twelve books of the season, was #5 on the INDIE ...